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Psychosis is a funny word My ex wore it proudly Continue reading

I’m six, and it takes an eternity to leave the shower. My body isn’t ready, it’ll be too cold. My towel is a heavy cloak and I’m a rogue Continue reading

I have these ridges on my toenails, I guess they’re called Beau’s lines Like rings of a tree trunk, they tell my most recent story The way you shook painfully in my arms on our very last night, the same one the presidential apocalypse began You kissed my forehead goodbye the next morning and I… Continue reading

Today, I looked in the mirror and saw myself. I’m blasting The Garden in the car with my windows down and running late to coffee with an old professor and feeding myself spring rolls in the library parking lot. I’m building puzzles and listening to old school hip hop and dancing to my cousin’s shower… Continue reading

I text you happy birthday today on a whim. I wasn’t planning on it, but I do, and I immediately feel the panic sink in. What if you take it the wrong way? What if you’re having an awful time and my text is shoving it in your face? What if you’re not ready for… Continue reading

Before the apocalypse, there was the apocalypse of others: Continue reading

Wren says they saw my spark today while I was reading some of the things I’ve written here Didn’t think I’d ever get the balls to do it I just didn’t think about it Just opened up my phone and started talking It was the easiest thing I’ve ever done My fingers shook and my… Continue reading

It’s valentines day a year ago we were cat-sitting, discovering each other in our own space for the very first time i got the birth control shot and we ate cold sushi at the kitschy general store while I cried the nurse had prescribed me anti-depressants for my PMDD and I was so excited so… Continue reading

Went to the gyno today. It’s been a whole year since I’ve been. To reward myself for getting through, I went to my favorite breakfast spot. Mushroom latte and poached eggs on toast. I recognized the server, one of my dad’s friends from college. I remembered he liked reggae music and my dad said he… Continue reading

Just now, I ate the last of our jam Slathered on top of some really bad gluten free banana pancakes The jam we made together from start to finish you showed me where to pick the blackberries How to step over the dog shit and push the spiderwebs to the side Our fingers stained pink… Continue reading