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depression is this ugly plate I have, each day I load her up; eggs, potatoes, orange slices arroz con lentejitas salmon patty and some bagged salad. some days the plate peeks through; today it was a quesadilla some salami slices at night I hate this ugly plate. on days I have to look at it,… Continue reading

Kinda ironic that her best brownie yet is the last one I’ll eat. Continue reading

For Christmas, Smiley sent me crew-length socks with snakes on the ankles, among other things Said that they reminded her of me, of the desert And I’m reminded of the time I bought the gold snake earrings with her and tried to slip them into my pocket Reminded of the time I reached in blind… Continue reading

And just like that, the day is over It’s not Christmas anymore It’s Boxing Day. The day where a year ago I sported dark purple hickeys all around my neck like a wreath. Where lust fizzed just under my skin, where Dad M. wiggles his eyebrows at me knowingly and lets me sneak away to… Continue reading

“There’s this melancholy at the heart of Reno, and that same melancholy sits deep inside my bones.” – Willy Vlautin Continue reading

Spit it out, but don’t show me. I don’t want to see the bone fragment between your teeth. Continue reading

art aunt rescues fruit flies from her Guinness like they’re her friends “awwwwww buddy… are you too drunk to fly away???” she fishes them out of the foam and sets them outside on the deck to sober up Continue reading

Where the fuck have you been? I’ve been looking for you. Thank god you’re still here Continue reading

We walked back to my car after the movie just now, just like we did at the very beginning. Except- the theatre is struggling. Neither of us work there anymore. We’re both leaving. Our ex-manager asked us to stay for a sec after the movie. She said she was leaving, too, and wanted to catch… Continue reading

I’m so sick of crying. Tomorrow was gonna be our 7 month anniversary. Sevens across the board. Our favorite number. The pink crystal necklace I gave her at the beginning snapped apart today. The neighbor’s cats are sad. She was their favorite. Her toothbrush is still next to mine. The shower is still wet from… Continue reading